I haven’t had much to say lately. I used to write blog posts two to three times a week, but lately I only feel compelled to write about twice a month. I’m not really sure why. I will sit down at my favorite writing spots (a peaceful front porch or a trendy coffee shop) and I will grab my iPad, ready to write.
But no words come. I’m waiting in silence.
Dear blog readers, I usually have a dozen blog posts ready to go “live” online. After preparing them, some just sit in WordPress, waiting until the time is right for me to post them. This blog post is over 18 months old but I think it may encourage one of you, today. And don’t worry – my sweet boy is feeling just fine now. And I am good, too!
I put on my walking shoes on a cool fall morning. God and I needed to have a talk because I was feeling like a hot mess. I had believed God for fourteen years for healing for my child’s chronic illness and he was sick again. To say that I was undone by this turn of events was an understatement. At first I was really scared. And then I was very angry. And after a few weeks of walking through spider webs, I just felt numb.
A few months ago I had lunch with a friend at Moe’s. We ordered our lunch, sat down, and had some small talk. Then came the expected question: “How are you?” At this point I always struggle with how to answer. If I’m having a hard day, do I smile and say, “I’m fine” or do I take a risk and choose to be honest? That day, which was a hard day, I took the risk and chose to be honest.
“I’m living broken,” I said.
I felt like such a hypocrite. I was sitting at my Bible study desk preparing to teach a lesson on Hebrews Chapter 6. In this passage, we look at Abraham, the great man of old, who through “faith and patience” inherited the promises of God. Then, I looked at my own life and faith compared to Abraham’s. The enemy came in low and strong and dealt me a devastating punch.
“Lisa, you are such a hypocrite. How can you teach about faith when you don’t have any?”
I love the book of Hebrews. I studied it and taught it all last summer, and I am studying it and teaching it now on Facebook Live. I hope to teach it this summer, too, at my church. It is one of my favorite books of the Bible because it encourages me in knowing that I can approach God’s throne with full confidence. It is also full of warnings and exhortations that challenge me.
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